C'est La Vie

"Some people are just too different or too similar that things just don't work out"

 I quoted the lines from you...yes, you!

 No matter how hard it is for me, I learnt that somehow we are just so much..alike..(or too different?).
And maybe this goodbye is for the best.
 But, I told you many times...if we never try we never know. And I put away all my cowardness and tried. No regrets!

 So, this is it. Hope you find what you were looking for. And I'm pretty sure you will. You and your pesimistic yet realistic way of life!

Bye M, I've learned a lot. And with God's amazing power called TIME..It will be just (another) memory. I'm not good with goodbyes..so, you take care out there.

Sincerely, (silly) Me




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The Prologue

When your days remembered and your life is written. 

I had finished my latest book, SJ Watson (Before I Sleep). Kinda creepy how we should concern about what might happen to our memories. And I just realized how important journals are. Seriously, when you think of that possibilities (that you might lose your memories), people around you maybe a great help...but a journal can also save your life.

Exaggerating? 

I don't think so.Try to talk to people who had terrible conditions of amnesia. Yeah, literally, a journal might help you go through your life ahead. 

Ok, enough with the intro. So, basically this 2012 goals will start with a journal of my own. I don't wanna call it a diary coz it sounds too teenager-though- I don't mind consider as one- but journal seems an appropriate name for now. 

Alrite, for some reasons, I'm not gonna put all the entries to my blog. But who knows, maybe I'm crazy enough to throw my daily silliness out there. 

Keep writing, keep reading. 

PS: I think I'll keep most of the entries in English. It's better to be stand corrected for my horror English than got slaughtered for my awful Bahasa:)

See you soon, world!

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2.0.1.2

Morning, WORLD!
How's your life, been good?
Me...Blessed!

So, where was I? Oh...2.0.1.2!
Alrite, it's been more than a year since my last note. And for same old excuses you keep reading. My bad.

I've been wanting to write again last month, actually. But the wireless connection was so bad that I almost moved out to an Island called ItsoremoteIcangrowbeardandmustache and marry their telco manager there.

But hey, when life gives you melon, I mean, lemon..all you have to do is squeeze them and make lemonade, rite? I love lemonade, especially when it's free.

I digress. I know.

Where was I? Oh, writing..and 2.0.1.2!

Okay, here is the good news..I wrote all those drafts offline and (of course) keep it safe and sound.
Yep, technology made our lives easier and lazier:)

Just in case you find it odd when I update my blog with hundreds couple of stories at once.
It's old stories...but I promise you it will be as fresh as morning dew (its existence still a mystery for me).
Most of them will be random too coz I saved it here and there (and some of these devices don't have calendar, literally).

Well, keep reading:)

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Love Letter Part 1

Teruntuk Fadhil, Icha, Ichan dan Usamah (no offense, alphabetical order). 

Glad you still remember me and sent me your awesome reunion pictures.
Well, I won't call any of our gathering as reunion anyway...coz I know no matter how far we are being apart, always close to the heart (I know, sounds lame and disgustingly romantic).

But somehow...it's true.
Kita selalu dekat...terasa dekat.
(Please say yes juga ya-fake it- it's ok).
Masing-masing memang telah "jauh" meniti takdir perjalanan tapi ada bahagia setiap kita bisa bertemu...ada rindu ketika mengingat kenangan masa lalu (terutama foto-foto yang sangat unyu dan lugu).

Kita, Us (ehm, not Oesamah), Kami, whatever they or us named our togetherness...apparently has become an invisible "bond" that will tie us forever (lebay, yeah..but I mean it).
No matter where we will be in the future, nggak peduli jadi apa kita nanti, atau siapa pasangan kita kelak (lho)...kita tetap merasa "kita", beserta semua paket perasaan yang kita "pernah" punya dan selalu punya.

Most of the time (terutama setelah kalian baligh dan tumbuh jakun, kumis, dan suara bapak2)...pertemuan2 kita mungkin akan terasa "awkward" (say it with funny tone-go ahead)...tapi, itu tak merubah rasa dibaliknya.

Yah, bagaimanapun rupa masing-masing kita saat ini atau nanti...kita akan tetap merasakan perasaan yang sama. Jadi pendiam atau makin bawel kah ketika kita bertemu...it doesn't matter.
Kita saling tahu siapa kita deep down inside...so well that we can't even hide a grin or a slight silly thought. 
Dan deep inside, kita tahu bahwa kita akan selalu menerima Fadhil, Icha, Ichan, dan Usamah apa adanya...seperti dulu, sekarang...bahkan masa datang.
Kita saling mencintai, I know that for sure!

Guys, andai setiap partikel-partikel mimpi kasat mata...kita akan lihat betapa mimpi-mimpi kita masa lalu dan saat ini, tetap berporos pada kebersamaan kita.

Tonite, no matter how hard life can be...
No matter how unfair the world seems to be...
No matter uncertain the future will be...
We will always have something to hold on to, at least to hang in there for one more day...
And I know, I'll always have you guys to light up my spirit and keep remind me...of our big dream.
That we will conquer the world together:)
That DREAM, will comes true...soon enough!

Ok, before I turn my self into another sad old gloomy single lady, I think I'll stop writing and start crying..I mean, working:)

Always love you guys,
Me-who-always-have-faith-in-us!
(And it's so awesome that you had the gathering without me*withloudtones*)
Love letter ini bahkan tidak melalui editor..go figure those grammatical errors!!!

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Rains

If you ask me what is it about rains that I love....Well, don't have certain answer for that.
Maybe the smell of the fresh soil after the first rain?
Those dark deep clouds?
The beauty of lightning and thunder?
A barefooted walk in the rain?
The feeling when you drenched yourself under the pouring rain?
Or just watch the rain drops knocking against your window?
Paper boats...float them away....


If you ask me what is it about rains that I love...
I don't know, I just...DO!

Remember those moments...when rains gave you awesome sentimental feelings?

Yeah, when you walk alone in the rain, and no-one knows that you are crying?*

And at the same time it wash away all your hurtful pain?*

**Ignore those last two-not-meant-to-be-there-sentences*

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See you again, soon..soon...!

This thesis thingy won't let me go!!!

Pray for me to finish my final submission next week and I'll see you, SOON!

*yeah, rite..another lousy excuse*

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It's been a while

How's life, World?

Been away for a while, not that i don't have anything to write. It just my life seems consumed by daily routine. And you know how i hate routine and boring stuff:(

Gonna share you some stories today. Better hope it's not the "same old same old" ones.

See you around later:)
Gotta do the exercise thingy...

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Better Make a Note

Brain wave today...amnesia tomorrow

Expressive today, tongue-tied tomorrow

Inspired today, stuck tomorrow

Witty today, humdrum tomorrow.

Yup, better make more notes:)

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Go Green

At first..every Saturday!

Now, Thursdays and Saturdays. Indonesia..or Jakarta??

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It Was Me..

Well world, can you believe it...it was twenty something (ago).

Now, I'm better..I mean Older:)

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